After the recent events with the Fantendo reform and all that, I've come to a realization.
I have to get out of here.
Being on this site over the past eight years has given me stress, depression, and trust issues in some cases. I have little to no motivation to work on most of my projects here because I can no longer trust myself to write something as a game without getting bored and ditching the project entirely. The community hasn't exactly helped with some of the shit that's gone down since I joined in 2012.
I've been having this feeling that I'm gonna end up doing something stupid again and it's bogging down my self-esteem. I feel like I'm drifting away from even my closest friends on the site because of this "doom and gloom" vision I've been stuck with. I can't keep doing this to myself.
I took a weekend break, and I've been talking a lot with some other friends on Twitter as of late. Throughout all the time I wasn't scrolling down Wiki Activity, I noticed I felt notably happier with myself in comparison. For the first time in years, I felt like my existence mattered, like it meant something.
I'm not saying you guys were never there for me. I've made some great friends within the community and I still like having them around for the most part. But some of the drama that's happened here made me feel like everybody was playing tug of war and I was never really sure which side to take. It always seemed like if I chose one side, the other side would hate me. There's probably at least a few people here who still hate my guts, but I won't bother accusing anyone specifically because I know I would just feel worse afterwards. I don't want any more dumb shit to go down here.
Because of all this, I've come to a final decision, and I will be parting ways with Fantendo.
The following pages are now up for adoption if anyone wants to pick up where I left off:
- Super Mario Maker Cloud
- Paper Mario: Double-Sided
- Mario Party: To The Max
- Mario & Luigi: Bananas Split,
- Cartoon Network vs. Capcom: Broadcast Brawlers
- Kirby and Pac-Man: Hourglass Empire
- Luigi's Mansion: Witching Hour
- Mega Man Universe (Lone Planet) (just replace or remove the Lone Planet from the name)
- Sonic + Peggle: Power Spinball
- Wario and the Badland Brotherhood
- Donkey Kong Country: Jungle Fever
Everything else I have requested for deletion because I have plans to work with those stories outside of the wiki, on Fanfiction.net. If you would like to keep following along with my work, you can check in over there. If you don't because you hate Fanfiction.net or whatever, then just don't. idk
I wish you all good luck in fixing this place up so it can be a healthier environment for any new users who join. Maybe I'll check in every now and then to see how things are going, but for now I feel like leaving the wiki is the best thing I can do for my mental and emotional health.
And with all that said, this is Heronimbus, MeGa eXal, MarioGumballX... signing out for the last time.